| Age | Sources and Pages | Code Number | Quotations | Relevant Key Words, Phrases and Their Code Numbers |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| 6 | SS 38. |
18-6-1 | …I remembered having heard that on our First Communion Day we can obtain whatever we ask for, and this thought greatly consoled me. Although I was only six years old at this time, I said: “I'll pray for this poor man the day of my First Communion.” I kept my promise five years later, in favor of one of His suffering members and I hope God answered the prayer He inspired me to direct to Him in favor of one of His suffering members. |
5-6-1 (Prayer, Meditation, Contemplation) |
| 7 | SS 57. |
18-7-1 |
One evening, I heard you say that from the time one received one's
First Communion, one had to commence living a new life, and
I
immediately made the resolution not to wait for that day but to commence
the very same time as Celine. Never had I felt I loved her as much as
I did during her three-day retreat; for the first time in my life, I
was separated from her and I didn't sleep in her bed. The first day,
forgetting she was not going to return, I kept a small bunch of cherries
which Papa had brought me in order to eat them with her. When I didn't
see her returning home I was really sad. Papa consoled me by saying he
would take me the next day to the Abbey to see my Celine and that I would
give her another bunch of cherries! The day of Celine's First Communion left me with an impression similar to my own First Communion. When awakening in the morning all alone in the big bed, I felt inundated with joy.“It's today! The great day has arrived.” I repeated this over and over again. It seemed it was I who was going to make my First Communion. I believe I received great graces that day and I consider it one of the most beautiful in my life. |
24-7-1 (Mercy of God, Graces), 39-7-1 (Pauline) |
| 9? | GCI 152, Nov. -Dec. 1882, (?) LT9: to Mother Marie de Gon- zague. |
18-9-1 | …So I want to correct myself, and, into each little hole, put a pretty little flower which I'll offer to little Jesus to prepare myself for my First Communion…. |
2-9-4 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials), 7-9-1 (Renunciation, Forget Self) |
| 11 | SS 79. |
18-11-1 | …The day after my First Communion was still beautiful, but it was tinged with a certain melancholy. The beautiful dress Marie had bought me, all the gifts I had received did not satisfy my heart. Jesus only could do this, and I longed for the moment when I could receive Him a second time. About a month after my First Communion, I went to confession for the Ascension and I dared ask permission to receive Holy Communion. Against all hope, the priest permitted it and so I had the happiness of kneeling at the communion railing between Papa and Marie. What a sweet memory I have of this second visit of Jesus! My tears flowed again with an ineffable sweetness, and I repeated these words of St. Paul: “ It is no longer I that live, it is Jesus who lives in me!”(Galatians 2:10.) | |
| 11 | SS 79 -80. |
18-11-2 | The day after my communion, the words of Marie came to my mind. I felt born within my heart a great desire to suffer , and at the same time the interior assurance that Jesus reserved a great number of crosses for me. I felt myself flooded with consolations so great that I look upon them as one of the greatest graces of my life. Suffering became my attraction; it had charms about it which ravished me without my understanding them very well. Up until this time, I had suffered without loving suffering, but since this day I felt a real love for it. I also felt the desire of loving only God, of finding my joy only in Him. Often during my Communions, I repeated these words of the Imitation:“ O Jesus, unspeakable sweetness, change all the consolations of this earth into bitterness for me.” This prayer fell from my lips without effort, without constraint; it seemed I repeated it not with my will but like a child who repeats the words a person he loves has inspired in him. |
2-11-2 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials), 5-11-1 (Prayer, Meditation, Contemplation), 14-11-3 (The Little Way), 17-11-2 (Love Jesus, The Love of God, Charity), 24-11-1 (Mercy of God, Grace), 29-11-1 (Consolation) |
| 14 | SS 104. |
18-14-1 | …For a grace received faithfully, He granted me a multitude of others. He gave Himself to me in Holy Communion more frequently than I would have dared corect hope. I'd taken as a rule of conduct to receive, without missing a single one, the Communions my confessor permitted, allowing him to regulate the number and not asking. At this time in my life, I didn't have the boldness I now have, for I'm very sure a soul must tell her confessor the attraction she feels to receive her God. It is not to remain in a golden ciborium that He comes to us each day from heaven; it's to find another heaven, infinitely more dear to Him than the first: the heaven of our soul, made to His image, the living temple of the adorable Trinity! |
24-14-4 (Mercy of God, Graces), 49-14-1 (Trinity) |
| 15 | GCI 478, Nov. 18, 1888, LT 67: to Mme. Guerin. |
18-15-1 | This morning, during my Holy Communion, I prayed very much to Jesus to give you His joys; alas! this is not what He is sending us for some time. It is the Cross, the Cross alone, which He is giving us in order to test us…. Oh! Aunt, if it had been only myself who was suffering, this would have been nothing, but I know the large share you took in our trial. For your feast, I would like to take away all sorrow and to take for myself all your pains. This is what I was asking for just now from Him whose Heart beats in unison with my own. I then felt that all He could give us of the best was suffering, and He was giving this only to His chosen friends; this answer proved to me that I was not answered, for I saw that Jesus loved dear Aunt too much to take away the Cross!… |
2-15-18 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials), 5-15-2 (Prayer, Meditation, Contemplation), 14-15-6 (The Little Way), |
| 16 | GCI 567 -568, May 30, 1889, LT 93: to Marie Guerin. |
18-16-1 |
Should I tell you something that has given me much sorrow?… It is that my little Marie has given up her Communions…on the feast of the Ascension and on the last day of Mary's month!… Oh! what sorrow this has caused Jesus!… The devil has to be very clever to mislead a soul in this way!… But don't you know, my dear, that this is the only goal of his desires? The evil one knows well that he can't make a soul that wants to belong totally to Jesus commit a sin, so he tries to make the soul believe it has. It is already much for him to put disturbance in this soul, but to satisfy his rage something else is needed; He wants to deprive Jesus of a loved tabernacle, and, not being able to enter this sanctuary, he wants, at least, that it remain empty and without any Master!… Alas, what will become of this poor heart?… When the evil has succeeded in drawing the soul away from Holy Communion, he has won everything…. And Jesus weeps!… Oh, my darling, think, then, that Jesus is there in the Tabernacle expressly for you, for you alone; He is burning with the desire to enter your heart…so don't listen to the devil, mock him, and go without any fear to receive Jesus in peace and love!…. …what offends Him and what wounds His Heart is the lack of confidence!… Dear little sister, receive Communion often, very often…. That is the only remedy if you want to be healed, and Jesus hasn't placed this attraction in your soul for nothing. |
4-16-1 (Trust, Confidence, Abandonment), 14-16-11 (The Little Way), 15-16-1 (Union with Jesus), 27-16-2 (Sinners, Sins), 50-16-4 (Jesus's Wounds, Pains and Tears) |
| 16 | GCI 576, July 14, 1889, LT 93: to Marie Guerin. |
18-16-2 |
Don't be troubled about feeling
no consolation in your Communions; this
is a trial that you must bear with love.
Don't lose any of the thorns you
are meeting every day; with one of them you can save a soul!… Ah, if you only knew how much God is offended! Your soul is so well made for consoling Him … love Him to folly for all those who don't love Him!… |
2-16-27 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials), 17-16-12 (Love Jesus, The Love of God, Charity), 22-16-4 (Salvation of Souls), 29-16-6 (Consolation), |
| 17~18 | SS 172 -173. |
18-17-1 | …All this, however, does not prevent both distractions and sleepiness from visiting me, but at the end of the thanksgiving when I see that I've made it so badly I make a resolution to be thankful all through the rest of the day. You see, dear Mother, that I am far from being on the way of fear; I always find a way of being happy and of profiting from my miseries; no doubt this does not displease Jesus since He seems to encourage me on this road. Contrary to my usual state of mind, one day I was a little disturbed when going to Communion; it seemed to me that God was not satisfied with me and I said to myself: Ah! if I receive only half a host today, this will cause me great sorrow, and I shall believe that Jesus comes regretfully into my heart. I approached, and oh, what joy! For the first time in my life I saw the priest take two hosts which were well separated from each other and place them on my tongue! You can understand my joy and the sweet tears of consolation I shed when beholding a mercy so great! |
2-17-2 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials), 23-17-1 (The Joy of Sufferings), 24-17-3 (Mercy of God, Graces), 29-17-1 (Consolation), 32-17-1 (Uncertainty of her Faith) |
| 24 | LC 147, Aug. 12. |
18-24-1 |
3. “Ever since the ear of corn, my sentiments regarding myself are even
lower. But how great the grace is that I received this morning when
the priest began the Confiteor before giving me Communion, and all
the Sisters continued. I saw Jesus very close to giving Himself to
me, and this confession appears to me as such a necessary humiliation.
‘I confess to Almighty God, to Blessed Virgin Mary, to all the saints,
that I have sinned exceedingly ….’ Oh! yes, I said to myself, they
do well to beg pardon from God and all the saints for me at this moment….
Like the publican, I felt I was a great sinner.
I found God to be so
merciful! I found it so touching to address oneself to the whole heavenly
court to obtain God's pardon through its intercession. Ah! I could hardly
keep from crying, and when the Sacred Host touched my lips, I was really
moved. “How extraordinary it is to have experienced this at the Confiteor! I believe it's because of my present disposition; I feel so miserable! My confidence is not lessened, on the contrary; and the word ‘miserable’ is not exact, because I am rich with all the divine treasures; but it's exactly because of this that I humble myself even more. When I think of all the graces God gave me, I restrain myself so as not to shed tears of gratitude continually. “I believe the tears I shed this morning were tears of perfect contrition. Ah! how impossible it is to give oneself such sentiments! It is the Holy Spirit, who gives them, He who ‘breathes where he wills.’” (John 3:8.) |
2-24-58 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials), 12-24-14 (Humility, Humbleness), 14-24-28 (The Little Way), 24-24-25 (Mercy of God, Graces), 26-24-1 (Confession), 27-24-10 (Sinners, Sins), 34-24-3 (Repentence, Contrition), 38-24-3 (Disposition) |
| 24 | LC 262, July, from a note of Sr. Marie of the Sacred Heart. |
18-24-2 |
At Carmel, her great suffering had
been not being able to receive Communion
each day. She said, a short time before her death, to Mother Marie de
Gonzague, who was afraid of daily Communion: “Mother, when I'm in heaven, I'll make you change your opinion.” This is what happened. After the death of the Servant of God, the chaplain gave us Communion every day, and Mother Marie de GonZague, instead of being repelled by it, was very happy about it. |
2-24-34 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials) |